In a single moment, everything changes. Seventeen-year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall riding along the snow-wet Oregon road with her family. Then, in a blink, she finds herself watching as her own damaged body is taken from the wreck…
A sophisticated, layered, and heart-achingly beautiful story about the power of family and friends, the choices we all make, and the ultimate choice Mia commands.
Seven years ago, I lost a friend to injuries sustained in a car accident. She too, was in a coma and fought her hardest to stay with us. Ultimately, she lost the battle two weeks later. Clearly, this was an emotional read for me.
As the sole survivor in a car accident that killed her parents and brother, Mia now lies in a coma. In first person narrative, she chronicles her life with retellings of important events (first recital, meeting her boyfriend, etc.). She continuously switches between past and present in deciding whether to live or die. In the present, she exists as an invisible observer; a spirit that watches over her body and observes the impact of the accident on her family and friends. There is an extremely heartbreaking scene with Mia and her grandpa where he recognizes her pain and tells her that he understands why it would be okay if she chose to pass on. I couldn’t imagine being in Mia’s situation and as a reader, I wasn’t sure what her final decision would be. You have to read the book yourself to find out!
Music has an overwhelming influence on Mia’s life and plays an integral part of the story. Music is the constant thread that ties aspects of Mia’s life together. Although I don’t play an instrument seriously (I pick up my guitar every now and again), it was interesting to hear how she perceived situations with her musical lens, especially the very intimate scene in which Mia and her boyfriend pretend their bodies are instruments to play.
Overall, If I Stay is a quick, intense and moving book. There are no chapter headings; instead the story is organized by time. Mia’s grim diagnosis fluctuates constantly so every second truly counts. I will definitely be continuing this emotional read with book #2, Where She Went.